Thursday, September 25, 2008
strange
how strange..
the prob is i dont even tear..
the prob is i'm not even sad..
how come?
no love..
hur hur
sounds ridiculous la
nitez fall as @
1:15 AM
i hate you
even if i cry is because the lost of 'i used to', not u..
thinking it was a habit but i can kicked the habit..
even if i'm alone, i'm fine..
working, schooling and friends waiting..
even if i'm single, i'm good..
contemplating for quite long le like i always told my girls..
i hate liars..
don't tell me half facts..
i hate de-motivator..
don't tell me u can't find a job..
i hate the you..
don't wanna force myself to encourage you..
when i'm half hearted already..
There is no pain no hurt,
but just a burden off my shoulder..
***
with my mind still thinking bout the incident..
yes, with regards to the incident that happen a week ago..
my mind's thinking.. r u still there? did u recognise me? did u felt sorry? did u felt guilt? is it still 6105? is it still the spanish transformer unlock tone? u left an impression in my mind.. impossible i said but still i tink.. with u, i did one of the "when was the last time you did sth for the first time.. with u, i felt like a princess.. with u, the lies i took them as white lies.. with u, a hug meant the world.. with u, waiting for few hours is like split secs.. with u, i saw anxiety.. but but y r all the guys so naive thinking that i'm so dumb to believe??? but that's the past la.. moved on..
***
meet dm for a casual dinner.. i like the long time no see feeling.. cool like ever.. thanks for still being my friend..
***
i missed zouking with shan & yi.. i really long for it.. this sat?
i wish, i hope..
i wish, i might..
nitez fall as @
12:59 AM
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
pass it on..
1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
- late for work
2. What did you do last night?
- work, study and had fish sliced soup for dinner
3. What is the most important of your life?
- my teddy bear
4. What would you rather be doing right now?
- sleep at home
5. What did you last cry over?
- thing not being up to expectation
6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
- eat
8. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
- my instinct
9. What are you worried about?
- my future
10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
- sunday
NINE HAVE YOU’S:
1. Have you ever liked someone while you had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
- yes
2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
- yes
4. Have you ever been out of the country?
- yes, i wan got taiwan badly
5. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
- yes
6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
- yes
7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
- yes, for work la
8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
- few days considered
9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
- yes enid blyton
EIGHT WHO’S:
1. Who was the last person you saw?
- my collegue
2. Who was the last person you kissed?
- kel
3. Who was the last person you texted?
- jacq, ask her bout updates for work
4. Who was the last person to call you?
- contractor
5. Who was your first crush?
- b**
6. Who is the last person who texted?
- jacq
7.Who is the last person you freaked out on?
- cockroach at visioncrest unit 01-14
8. Who did you last hug?
- my teddy bear
SEVEN WHEN’S:
1.When was your last shower?
- last night
2. When did you last see your mom?
- this morning
3. When was your last time u saw your dad?
- last night
4. When did you last dress up?
- 2 sat ago to zouk
5. When was the last time you cried?
- last week
6. When did you last go to the movies and with who?
- fri.. kel..
7. When did you last listen to music?
- now
SIX WHERE’S:
1. Where does your best friend live?
- 510 west coast
2. Where did you last go?
- singapore shopping centre to da pao lunch
3. Where did you last hang out?
- nus
4. Where do you go to school?
- nus
5. Where is your favorite place to be?
- east coast carbana
6. Where did you sleep last night?
- 345 level 5
FIVE DO’S/DOES:
1. Do you like someone right now?
- yes
2. Do they like you too?
- maybe
3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
- yes coz i was nv satisfy
4. Do you know the muffin man?
- no
5. Does the future scare you?
- yes
FOUR WHY’S:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
- coz i love her
2. Why did you get a myspace?
- dunno
3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
- fortune teller
4. Why are you doing this survey?
- jiayan lo
THREE IF’S:
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
- be a happy bean
2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
- yes, i would learn to not dwell about future so much
3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring one thing what would it be?
- my teddy bear
TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
- yes. him.
2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
- maybe
ONE LAST QUESTION:
1. Are you happy with your life right now?
- could be better
Now the 5 people to do this:
-you
-you
-you
-you
-you
nitez fall as @
1:09 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
down
jeopardizing my r/s every now & then..
but he don't get it.. there is more..
he fails to understand and hear me..
i wan more.. i wan more..
nitez fall as @
3:10 PM
confused!
i saw D at clementi and i'm still think about it..
crazy tot!
nitez fall as @
3:10 PM
Monday, September 08, 2008
my weekend
i wish my weekend is longer..
woke up and headed to IRC at 10am.. *yawn*
project project project till 5++
meet yi at 7 instead of 3.. late late late...
then to zouk.. raining somemore..
love my bestie
fun fun fun..
but my body is aching so badly..
slept away my sun.. boring boring boring..
nitez fall as @
10:25 AM
Friday, September 05, 2008
of the..
of the many man that failed me..
sorry if i ever fail you.. forgive me..
of the many promises that is broken..
dont expect me to fulfill any..
of the boring stuff..
dont expect any suprises..
nitez fall as @
11:23 PM
random-ies
new mad jack at selegie..
my second time at mad jack.. the first was at jalan kayu and taste much much better.. not so packed and better service.. hmm.. i wanna try the one at six avenue..
growing fatter.. y me? my sis made me angry i dun wan attend her ROM le.. sad :(
nitez fall as @
9:52 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
looking back..
looking back..
i feel so stupid..
i laugh at myself..
HAHAHA..
but still finger cross..
nitez fall as @
2:59 PM
Monday, September 01, 2008
i felt guilty..
i feel damn guilty after reading the blogs that i usually does..
material, family, love..
i thou to be kind of better off than many but i just choose not be satisfied..
friends are hard to define.. sometimes i wish that i have the courage to talk to you guys but i can't cause i am in no position.. i cant offer advice cause i dun have them.. i cant have the regular talks cause i'm not that involved.. i'm just dangling there.. i wish i knew more, i wish i was more attached.. but i wasn't..
to the fact that i become nothing.. kind of sad but i wish to catch up but running far too slow.. i thou to meet up but i cant due to work.. i thou to ton over the weekend but i was simply too tired to get off the bed.. i'm guilty cause i spend my time clubbing to attain the so-called happiness in me where i feel i'm at the top of the world.. dancing like i never dance before, drink like i was dehydrated.. the kind of after-effect that someone left me behind.. to understand what is alcohol.. the kind of hurt that can never erased and will nv be erased..
i wan to join your gathering my friend.. will you come out for a dinner if i ask you to?
hmm...
nitez fall as @
3:37 PM
for the better
i'm gg to sell my lovely bbl today..
tonight 9plus.. i hope it goes thru..
taking back my $390..
bitter sweet..
coz this baby is really sweet but i need sth better..
*LOL*
nitez fall as @
3:34 PM
love my bestie
growing fatter.. y me? my sis made me angry i dun wan attend her ROM le.. sad :(