♥shuhua a.k.a. sara♥

Thursday, March 29, 2007


dot dot dot . . .

feeling lost at this chapter of my life..
well may the next be full of surprises..
crossing my fingers..
dumb dee dee dumb..

:x

thinking back was it a gain or a loss..
it up to u to wonder..


nitez fall as @10:44 AM


failure

a human who can't seperate emotions from career is a failure.. it doesn't matters how good you are doing.. if you said there was karma then be it.. it still goes to you in the end.. bless be~


nitez fall as @12:05 AM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007


the sin

i'll rather be an angel..
i don't wanna commit sin..
he called but i refused..
he is not the him i used to mention..
but the angel i used to believe..
but it's a sin..
i knew it..

i'm still home now..
not out..
not anywhere..

i can't lean on him forever..
remember?
he's a sin..
i told u..


nitez fall as @12:17 AM


random

i think i just hate the facts of the below post but just let it be, i'm too tired to ponder over it..

randoms

as i dream a sin and i'm one..
it's dark as i kept my flaws covered..
was it a dream that came true..
*period*
i just needed a shoulder..
someone to depend on when i fall..
it a lie to myself..
the reason i live for..

was it the tremor that shook senses outta me?
when everyone is running outta bldg..
i quietly sat down near the window..
looking at the scene..

mug from apple..
1st mug ever @ my workplace..
sweet.. moo and the prints goes..
you are adora-bull..

a BIG thank you to the owner of these items..
can you please don't take others personal belonging and play please..
he's an angel, a devil..
he drives u nuts by flipping roti prata..
yet hold the slamming SGX door for u..
he's one kind that you love and hate..
yes yes, last but not least thank you thank you thank li buey si..
wahaha..
p.s.: i'm so gotta write this.. force i mean.. :)

it think i'll miss them..
maybe abit maybe lots..
i'm not sure yet..

her time is up..
for her to fly and soar..
a lunch to say goodbye..
take care and all the best for ur future endeavour..

out again with ah-wu clubbing kakis - 17 march
da gang..
best dance mates.. loves..
it's the angle, i'm not drunk..
wc & the kid.. that's how he call me..
nd & me.. that's how we smile.. see that lemon in my smile.. sunshine..
twist.. the child in me..
one two three, see that grin again..

and here comes the lovely - 24 mar
thanks for the invite..
prettie aye..
one more pls..
thankie cch for the photo & the ride back..

partying @ mos back during cny

long long time ago.. monochrome..

this is what i wan & i got it.. thanks bro..


nitez fall as @12:16 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007


freaking ass

haven been worked up for damn long.. but this damn thing is getting out of hand and now backstab my lovely ass.. stab all u wan, u coward don't even dare to confront me.. no balls man shan't call u a man, u r not fit.. damn dust aka dirt as ur preferred name.. *pui*


nitez fall as @2:34 PM


so now what..

i'm totally piss now.. tmdknncbpcblj f**ker, act so fast and send bloody hell email.. i feel terribly injustice.. so i don't even get to know what is the actual.. f**ker cum s**cker.. yes no hope completely.. what a damn ting u r..


nitez fall as @9:10 AM

Friday, March 23, 2007


shucks

the post is gone again..


nitez fall as @5:39 PM


what a fugly world?

when it comes to monies matter? everyone just turn their back against you but at the same time money make the world go round.. it's not as though it like a zillion or what so ever the co just close an investment deal of $361mil.. and can anyone tell me what is that amount to them? it's 0.00000xx percent lo as far as my calculator states..

alright, i mean i will take what you said but don't tell me that you don't give me comm because you gave me bonus.. to me the bonus is an extra but the comm is mandatory, i would gladly give u back the bonus if the company says they DO NOT i repeat DO NOT honour their words in the letter given together with the bonus..

it's two seperate issue by the way and i'm pissed.. to add on, if u tell me my position does not entitle me comm, please think again.. and look clearfully at the letter of appt, once again if u tell me that the company lied to me in a form of black and white? i doubt so.. give me a reasonable explanation..

then i dun wan the pathetic bonus, give me back the comm then.. i need to survive one lo..

and if you are to be so calculative for the month of jun 06, i entered the co. on 15 june 06, if there are 22 days in the month of june 2006, i should be entitled to more that half the months pay.. cause i worked 12days out of the 22days.. y only half? mind you what wrong with your calculation? if u r going to calculate clearly, please be consistent..

i'm so glad that i'm leaving.. *smile*

YES YES, the more you don't wish to give me, the more i'll try to give it..
trust me, bitch! *LOL*

i mean pay deduction cause i didn't serve the 1 month, go ahead and do it but poor me has only $30 to live for the rest of march. sian, i'm like damn broke lo. argh, sat is a promise to shan to be at zouk, please tell me how am i going to survive.. please rain money.. i'm not being materialistic if you are beginning to ponder.. but who on earth don't need money?

you tell me..


nitez fall as @5:10 PM

Monday, March 19, 2007


wat to choose?

it was a difficult decision to make but i knew i had to make it.. and yes, i rejected an offer to take up another.. to draft the email to reject the job was like freaking hard cause i knew i had to disappoint at least a party. and whatever it is i'm more and more confident of myself in interview.. bingo i got watever i ask for.. i had an 2 hrs interview.. yes 2 hrs and got hired on the spot.. cool! and even offered to pay for the early release but of course not la.. cause i already tendered.. haha.. no break, no holiday.. help!

not much luck but just average work with average pay and an average title.. just as a kick-off, a bigger bldg.. satisfied! exams coming, deadlines approaching.. roar, i need time..

hmm, sily as i can be, i'm out of control.. they knew it and i cant help it.. i let so many ppl down, i'm sorry but u r nobody to judge me..

back to the littlest happy tings in my life, wed, went to the bojangles coz the regular closed down and was a disappointment that the ramming device is gone with peace due to old age.. we do miss the ramming, we agreed but no more.. one ting, they serve salted peanuts.. haha only he gets my joke.. alright, i'm like famished but all pubs at railway mall closes at 12-1am.. and of corse headed home..


nitez fall as @11:17 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007


shit la

i blogged like 1 hr but it's gone.. not gonna do it again.. waste my time.. damn but i feel better now.. good night


nitez fall as @12:44 AM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007


so what's the ideal?

haiz.. so troubled man.. how ah? how much should a dip ask for? how much are the ppl earning man.. damn sian lo.. am i asking for too much? dunno wat to do.. may money drop from the sky.. y no ideal huh?

god ans me..


nitez fall as @9:52 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007


so afraid to fall..

news is out, pay dedeucted more than expected..super sianz to hear that..
cause i think it's too sucky liao.. so for the last week is just free labour.. haha.. cant even give and take.. to inflexible le..

so in another 1 day or so, i'll know if i'm travelling a not..
so i can go book le.. hee..


nitez fall as @11:12 AM

Sunday, March 11, 2007


equilibrium

it's so hard to attain equilibrium.. things are not settled in any way..
pondering, should i do? or shall i just runaway from reality..
hmm, travelling?.. =)

shall see..


nitez fall as @8:00 PM

Saturday, March 10, 2007




OH WELL..

that was what i was advised to say..

grr.. sometimes things just go haywire and when they get back proper, life just seems much better.. but not yet..


nitez fall as @2:13 AM

Friday, March 09, 2007




I'm so bitch

hmm.. now my feeling like un-describe-per-ble.. a lost feeling refound.. it was a miscomm that lead to a lifetime decision of mine.. anw i tendered today 8 mar and request for early release on 1 apr.. guess wat i was damn devastated that ppl including my folks wasn't quite supportive of my decision and some others too.. like u should sign before u tender.. i mean i'm old enough to know what is good or bad for me but sometimes god just has his reasons for making things this way..

yes yes, the proposed day to start was early next month.. omg althought is like no breaks nothing but i'm okay i suppose i gonna have the kind of life being born an ox but well, its good.. thumbs up for me.. i nv fail interview.. it's so bitchy to say this but just for this specific one i was like put in super lots of effort.. Hehe..

3 cheers for me.. more to go.. erm haven reply yet, seem that i'm quite rude but perhaps there's a better one following up? omg.. i'm so excited.. so the next one, to test if the above statement is right.. oh start swearing at me now for being so proud la.. watever.. *slap slap*

enough.. the above is just a very rare sight/post cause i seldom say things so confidently wat so ever yah.. so pardon me this super duper pessitimistic gal there please..

but something worrying is tat i might not be able to get early release? *faint* have to pay money leh.. about erm.. let me calculate.. 5 working days, approx 250bucks.. alright la.. seems a lot but not too much seeing the new offer.. i'm just determine to leave.. $250 = 5 clubbing session = 50 days of mac in sch.. LOL


nitez fall as @12:30 AM

Wednesday, March 07, 2007


yucks.. to hopeful?

haiz it's so hard to be me.. too pesstimistic lead to too much worries and troubles, too optimistic lead to unnecessary disappointment.. then please teach me what to do.. i'm feeling so sick, cause the problem still starts and ends with me which i seem to be the ultimate victim in the end.. and all these suck like so badly.. and i'm feeling terrible now.. i just need basic support but it just can't seem to get thru.. *punch punch*

haiz.. life's never an easy routine it seems to be.. if all our lifes are written in a book, i guess my book would haven been super thick cause there was a misprint with a few repeated pages.. god please tear the repeats away.. if not when i gonna die i'll sue the publisher..


nitez fall as @3:47 PM

Monday, March 05, 2007


shut-off

shut off brain@work.. haiz kana scolded again, yes it's my fault.. or perhaps too used to this arrangment.. i feel so sad for myself.. grr. anw i'm waiting for the call patiently.. god bless.. *cross fingers*

sleeping the entire day cause of the stupid migraine.. i'm not catching up neither the project nor the quiz.. it's really bad.. so now.. no lunch.. boo..


nitez fall as @11:58 AM