Wednesday, September 27, 2006

so busy

i'm so so busy.. hardly catch any slp since last week.. rushing for the assignments n projects n flea market..

yup, flea at sat was great..
with lots of moral suport from the following ppl:

1)HIM.. he made my day as lots of u can see i.e. yan, queenin & elf.. i'm so glad that he came and waited and waited.. seeing u is the most wonderful thing i thought at the point of time, now still.. thanks for the food & 'coke with love'.. yups got potato skin with cheesy cheese my fav.. then after that got a dinner treat and movie.. happy happy happy.. over the rainbow..

2)DAD.. tried to roam ard to see how my biz was, when i desperately shoo u home..
i just wanna say thank you for being the driver and the guardian angel, i know u meant good but i just wan to do it myself, i grow up liao can don't interfere a not? i can do it one la..

3)Yan & Queenin who stayed over at my place helping me to do the last min thing and the special hand painted shirt for ourselves.. thanks for sacrificing ur slp for yan who had a meeting the next morning.. thanks queenin for the time u forgo to spend with keita.. hey girls, i really appreciate very much.. u ppl are so understanding and encouraging when i almost gave the flea up, u guys gave continuous support in all ways, accompanying me to walk the street up and down just to get the cheapest raw material, choose for me and ur ideas.. u all are so valuable to me.. therefore, i come to a conclusion that friendship cant be totally determined by time.. u two make the differences.. i still have yet to treat u guys as i promised, u guys nv ask for anything in return but but even though i just almost make even, i will give u the treat tml.. peeps, i love u.. *smooch*muacks*muacks* please claim ur kisses tml..

4) Mum & sisters.. who dropped by that irritated the hell out of me.. iya dun come and disturb me leh..

5) Chor wei.. thanks for the soup..

6) Elf/Wallace/Lian Jie.. tried to steal my 'coke with love' /msn me to help me 'jia you'..

7) Cayce/Karan/Bryson.. aftermath.. who ask me how's the flea..

8) queenin & yan's friends namely chris, the couple, fanny & cute daughter, etc..

9) the online shops owners who tagged me

10) plus those who are involved..

Sadly, to my close friends - u were not there at all & u know nuts about my flea.. i did mention to u about it but u guys just took it for granted the presence of me.. u guys just don't bother about me.. yes yes u can have all the fun in the world but as long as u r not bored, i was not in ur directory.. i was upset by the fact but it's okay.. sometimes in life, our roads do cross but when it's time to split, just let it be.. bless be..

picts to be up soon.. queenin quick.. hee

nitez fall as @9:22 PM

Monday, September 25, 2006

argh.. i hate it..

wtf.. recept duties.. it just makes me wonder.. my 3 months is up yet the confirmation letter is not done yet.. now i'm considering if i wan to sign it now.. or perhaps if i do have to do recept duties then must y i take up the post of a receptionist coz i can get the same amount of income rotting at the desk.. waiting for money to come.. haha.. so wat do u guys think?? & i certainly think that sec school grads are earning more than me now.. don't u think it's just so idiotic?

u know i just hate the way u look at me as if i really love to do the recept dutied but no i terribly hate the way u wan me to sit there for 1 hour waste my time.. whereby i got better things to do.. & now i become so unproductive.. so blame the shit out of me?

sucks, it all sucks like shit.. i'm ranting again coz i'm totally unhappy about it.. yes the world is not fair but i got what it takes to be in a fairer world.. bye..

nitez fall as @12:31 PM

Monday, September 18, 2006

the weekends was..

*friday* - class as usual till 10pm but didn't head home went to catch a movie, thanks my friend.. u know it has been so long since i last saw one.. watched 'little man'.. the show is damn funny.. but damn cold & freezing.. anw i stole the jacket.. grr.. after that wanted to have coffee.. i suppose all the shops were closed.. no more coffee bean or starbucks.. sian.. night rider home alone was thinking about him thru out.. walked 4 bus stop home as usual.. the cold wind with the dark and dim lighting.. scare my out of my wits.. freak for no reasons i was trembling, trying to get home asap.. for the first time i felt so scare coz u weren't ard.. and i knew i have to pluck out my courage to do things all by myself.. i must be used to it.. reached home & knock out..

*sat* - woke up in the afternoon and went to shop for the flea stuff with queen & yan.. thanks for the motivation but i'm still worried.. hopefully, it will turn out great..

*sun* - finally dye my hair.. cheers.. met up with yan for dinner.. sorry to keep u waiting for so long..

coz u didn't wan me, that y i have to be pretty!

nitez fall as @4:01 PM

Saturday, September 16, 2006

only you can fulfil that dreamz

i got ur msg, i was over the moon..
u asked if had the work the day after, i said yes..
u refuse to meet me coz u were afraid that i had insufficient slp..
but i tot if i didnt met up with u, i cant even fall aslp..
u insisted not but i was then on my way already there to meet u..
i was on my way u said i gave u trouble coz u had to wait for me to arrived..
when i arrived we saw each other still on the phone, u said that i aimed at ur soft spot and i had to coax u on the cab..
u stared angrily at me and for a moment i felt that that was the kind of expression when i first met u..
u tried to reprimand me a little coz u said 8.30am called very late go to work meh, i replied yes coz it's 2am now, i could see u a little longer..
u followed to ask me if ur work or my work is more important, i answered urs but no u said equally important that's y u dun wan to disturb me.. u are a little pissed but i smiled at u hoping that it will ease ur anger..
then u ask if i wanted a movie, i said no, watching u was good enough..
u asked if i need help at my flea market, i said yes i needed only u..
u asked how much i would pay u for helping, i replied myself but u said u weren't interested.. u asked again, i said 100 baht coz u r my bala..
i wanted to hug u but u refused coz u said i prefer u to cuddle me..
u made me feel so loved with the background music of 'superwoman'..

i was hoping that the cab journey nv ended..

u ask me how's my life.. i said still the same..
u ask me if there's any guys after me, i replied no..
coz i was afraid u might give me up to them..
u asked again, i couldn't bear to lie to u anymore, i said yes..
u ask me to name all, i named a few such as aXXX, bXX, kXX, hXXXX, iX, etc..
u said u were jealous, u read my blog.. i say if u r jealous y u don't wan me? so u wan me a not? you replied YES firmly, that little word is sufficient and make all the waiting worthwhile..
i ask u wat kind of person would u like.. as usual ur answer goes i wan u with a better personality.. i said i'm changing trying very hard to.. i'll try to learn to not disturb u.. coz u need to work and ur social life..
no obligations, willingness.. i understand it all..
i asked u again do u wan me? u said yes, i just need u to wait 3 years & i'll marry u.. elated.. coz i knew u still care, u still love me as much as i do..
then u ask me where i wan to go for holiday, i said anywhere as long as i can be with u.. u suggested a few, but when i ask u said see how lo.. i was like omg.. i wanna go chang mai again to fulfil wat we wanted to do.. the place tat we had our first trip, first arguement where u gave me the 'i so angry look' coz there and then i was with the other polymates.. u were jealous & i like the cute look on ur face.. hmm..

i was hoping that u wasn't drunk saying all tat..

i'm still waiting i know it's gonna be tough but i'm willing.. but now in this dream, u r the only one that can fulfil it.. please do..

nitez fall as @4:47 AM

Thursday, September 14, 2006

so sian

today, no class.. i'm so sian.. nobody gg out with me..
i miss him badly! oh no..

nitez fall as @1:54 PM

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

SEPTEMBER..

after so much in my life hopefully things gonna get better..

Our new hangout - Bugis TCC

it's not so busy & noisy.. not the 1 that serve drinks only but also food.. btw there's 2 TCC at bugis.. & yes i got the membership thanks 2 yan but sadly i forget to bring on that day..

partner & i

my super duper fav.. wedges with cheese + extra cheese..
cheese indulge must try eh!

her curry blah blah..

my apricot dory.. but later i discovered that i dun like apricot topping..

then me..

oh btw,

nice ba.. this is wat's in the postage pack if u followed the earlier post..

*****

also met up with bestie, partner & jann(yi's cousin)..
catch up on lots.. anw i jus coz 1 precious pix..

tada..

..

*****

on a seperate note, haha dad told me he reads my blog!
*faint*

nitez fall as @1:42 PM

on my MC day..

migraine cause it all..

whatever it is, it seems that i have got all the answers u i wanted i life which u have provided me with.. i really appreciate that talk.. thanks for making me feel wonderful again.. from the time we parted till now.. all the things that u & me have done.. i don't know, i don't wan to know.. i just wanted to know wat's now, what do u wan..

okay share with u all my stuff but got to know nth of urs but sometimes it just so unbearable for me to be left alone.. i just need a little bit of u.. i don't wan you to be jealous, i just need you to be proud of me.. coz i'll always be urs.. i don't need you to be by my side, i just need you to know ur presence.. for a little it of comfort.. i need no obligations but just a little willingness.. u wan me but when can i have u beside me again.. argh.. trust.. that's gonna be a large part of it...

I thought sometime alone was what we really needed.. you said this time would hurt more than it helps but I couldn't see that.. I thought it was the end of a beautiful story and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone and I tried to find out if this one thing is true that I'm nothing without you.. I know better now and I've had a change of heart..

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart

And then I met someone and thought he could replace you.. we got a long just fine, we wasted time because he was not you, we had a lot of fun though we knew we were faking.. love was not impressed with our connection they were all lies, all lies.. so I'm here cause I found this one thing is true that I'm nothing without you.. I know better now and I've had a change of heart..

I can't blame you if you turn away from me, like I've done you, I can only prove the things I say with time, please be mine!

I'd rather have the one who holds my heart..

i juz wan u.. u knew it all.. dont doubt!

nitez fall as @12:39 PM

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

dream or fantasy?

hmm.. wat's exactly happening? it nothing like words can ever explain.. i'm feeling happy again.. cheers! please i pray that god's not gonna make fun of me again.. let the best-est thing happen to me.. i begged.. it's not mood swing but this kind of feeling is incredible.. a feeling lost and found.. i just like the way u r.. let's break the fight & be good..

The song explains it all..

Loving you
Is easy because you're beautiful....
Making love with you
Is all I want to do....
Loving you
Is more than just a dream come true....
And everything that I do
Is out of loving you....

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring....
Stay with me while we grow old....
And we will live each day in spring time....

Because loving you....
Has made my life so beautiful....
And every day of my life
Is filled with loving you....
Loving you....
I see your soul come shining through....
And everytime that we....
Oh I'm more in love with you....

nitez fall as @5:12 PM

Monday, September 11, 2006

**HATES**

great! now that all the good things have past, all the sucky fcuking stuff start to bestow on me.. pardon me for the foul language used for it's just so unbearable.. i hate the way i am now, depression.. u left, haha left me in a miserable state.. thumbs up bottom up.. terribly single(feeling single ba, i'm been single all this while).. CHEERS! to my enemies don't you like to see me this way?

plus work S-U-C-K-S or should i say the benefits and recognition sucks to be fair to my fellow colleagues? i don't have the luck to go high up, being in my lowly fcuking posititon is all i can do.. damn the ass out of ya.. am i in the right industry? ppl dip grad can be execu, i be fcuking coordinator.. yes yes i admit that i'm idealistic but good things just don't happen to me.. probation is gonna end in 4 days time.. can i stil carry on? i started on the 15 june but the a/c ppl damn sucky nv pay me for 1 day yet deducted 2 days of my mc.. wtf.. angry angry angry.. yes i'm picking on things coz i very buay song.. i hate myself the kind of life i have.. don't offend me for now, i'm out of love crying in the centre of the earth..

i love u but u hate me.. so how? haha thanks lj for saying i'm brave to talk to u.. but i no longer have the courage to.. i lost the confidence.. & that's how i felt but at least was happy for a week or so.. enuff perhaps that's the best god can do for me.. sianzzz...

and thanks to the contribution of my girlfriends, y must u always let me be the last to know.. super duper hates.. i dont say doesnt mean i'm unhappy.. y can the whole world be unhappy yet consoled but i cant.. i not human is it? i'm ghost.. ya.. slash my wrist and die la.. will not let u all down sure go to the extreme k.. sure die..

girlfriends, u r enjoying, u left me out! i told u but u dont even bother to care.. how good are u my friend.. it's the little things that make me feel.. plus migraine is killing me for the past 2 days.. puke puke..

enuff of my nonsense but i feel much better now.. thanks, blog!

nitez fall as @10:18 AM

Saturday, September 09, 2006

great things don't last

after the 2 entries of happiness back to the same me.. sad.. someone save me..

nitez fall as @5:29 PM

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i have got motivation..

my motivation is YOU...

i've got you.. lalala.. i think so la.. whatever..

yep, application for the flea market has been approved..

seems that things are getting on track..

great, he says good for me.. but i'm kind of VERY BUSY recently but not gonna let anyone down.. cant slp or should i say insomia? i'm terribly tired but can't get to slp.. lots of assignment & project due-ing soon.. & the new accessories is not up to standard, i see them myself, i'm not satisfied gonna dismantle & redo..

tired, tired.. but it feels extremely great when the buyers tell me that my items look pretty! special! they love it! they love my stuff so much that they ask me for more.. so on and so forth.. that type of satisfation that i cant get anywhere else.. yes yes that keeps me going.. i'm in for all the praises.. thanks dudes.. gonna crack my brain to do more attractive accessories..

damn cool..

p.s: promise me don't leave me alone.. i'll be good.. muackz

nitez fall as @5:37 PM

Monday, September 04, 2006

The Very Moment

Even if it's gonna be a moment, let me treasure it and enjoy the single bit of it!

love,
sara~

nitez fall as @12:08 PM

Great Start For September

adhoc trip to JB..

nobody stopped me coz they know they can't.. they knew how much i love u.. so much that u created an impact in my life.. u took control of my emotions.. but i didn't cried for once.. i turned the tears to energy to make the trip great for u..

it was just so superb with u around.. just me & u.. i lived that moment with u.. w-o-n-d-e-r-f-u-l.. i' so madly in love..

the swimming pool was frozen but we thaw it with our warm heart.. the jacuzzi is burning our skin yet our heart soothe it all.. that's how the very moment works like magic.. where the magical journey just continued..

finally i knew how to smile from my heart

i think u loved me & still love me.. u remembered what i like.. not any rice, noodles, expensive dining but..

yes yes, the ones that we used to have in thai.. the taste is just great with u..

u r still my super bartender, my best pool player.. the apple of my eye..

i heart u..

over the rainbow.. over joyed..

red wine.. erm just as the girls are recently into it.. ok i had lots.. still hanging on not drunk as usual.. i'm an alcoholic.. hee..

P.S.: i brought my camera along but didn't took any coz the moments where all captured in my heart.. wanna see it? slaughter me.. hee..

good things got to wait,
even the finest wine needs to fermentate,
i'm waiting for you my darling dear.. no..
i have been waiting always.. i heart you.. muackz

nitez fall as @12:44 AM

August 2006

it just flew pas without me knowing.. extremely busy on my 'sweet.littles' and school is reopen-ed..

so what i did? of coz i could i have missed out the kind of fun we used to have in sec days trying to get out way thru buying alcoholic stuff from 7-11 under the age of 18.. but somehow we managed to.. now that we have all grow up but the collection of memories just run on & on..

bestie & me
slept over at her place on the floor coz was too tired while watch the dvds.. thereafter left for raffles marina for the bazzar.. some event gg on.. cool..

the main entrance

lobby

nice pool

lovely sky
business wasn't good there coz no crowd but nevertheless a geat experience.. then met up with partner..

she nv fails to make me smile..
tcc frenzy, our new hang out.. met ym's bf yen loong for first time.. his treat.. thks..

and of coz how could i have left out this out.. high on alcohol..

and i never forget our favourite cake.. tiramisu when ever i misses u..

hohoho.. and the first time i do trades instead of sales for my online shop.. see what i've got.. the dress from jing ying.. loves.. thks girl..

after like a decade, i had a treat to fine dining.. kind of cool but not for me this kind of blur little girl.. cant take photo coz too much of ettique was required.. i like the place the atmosphere but not the person i was with so it kind of gg a little sianzzz..